Jesse called tonight- Nicholae talked to him for most of the time. It was okay because I didn't know what to say. I am as confused as ever with him. The part that confuses me the most today is that so long before he left he would say he was done with me and how he didn't care about anything and then once he leaves I get mushy letters... wish I had an explanation for that one.
I told him about his pay being screwed up so we shall see when it gets fixed... bills are piling up and not looking to cool for the next month trying to pay things!
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
He Called...
So Jesse called tonight while I was at my grandma's house for supper with her and my parents. Nicholae got to talk to him for a few seconds and then I did. The length of the call was a wapping 2min 54seconds! but I guess I have to take what I can get.
Its really hard to talk to him because there is so much background noise and the excitement that I actually am talking to him. There is just so much I want to say but hard to say it with the little time there is to get everything out.
So for now I will just be blogging and counting down the days until he comes home and we can move one with our lives in which ever direction we decide.
Its really hard to talk to him because there is so much background noise and the excitement that I actually am talking to him. There is just so much I want to say but hard to say it with the little time there is to get everything out.
So for now I will just be blogging and counting down the days until he comes home and we can move one with our lives in which ever direction we decide.
Jesse's Anniversary Card to Me....
It isn't easy being so in love with you and not being able to see you everyday. There are times when I'd give anything just to be able to gaze into your eyes or hold you in my arms, even for a few minutes. I always feel incomplete like a part of me is missing, when we're not together. I know that, right now, this is how things have to be, but that doesn't make it any easier to bear. Everyday without you just reminds me of the joy you add to my life, joy that I'm missing.... a lot.
So don't forget that I love you, that I'm thinking of you, and that I'm counting every minute until we're together again.
NOT sure at all what to think--- let me give you a little info to back my confusion to this card... When Jesse left we left it as we would be discussing divorce once he returned. So with this card it makes it very difficult to believe this because the last few months before he left were not so good. I personally think that life is too short to be un-happy and that is exactly what both of us were... un-happy.
So don't forget that I love you, that I'm thinking of you, and that I'm counting every minute until we're together again.
NOT sure at all what to think--- let me give you a little info to back my confusion to this card... When Jesse left we left it as we would be discussing divorce once he returned. So with this card it makes it very difficult to believe this because the last few months before he left were not so good. I personally think that life is too short to be un-happy and that is exactly what both of us were... un-happy.
June 25th
Today is June 25th- four years ago today I said I do to the man of my dreams. In the past 4 years it hasn't been easy but looking back and what examining what we have accomplished and gone through I would do it all over again. I am still not convinced we will be moving forward as a family when Jesse returns from his military training but I do know the last 4 years will never be regretted.
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